I Think I Found that 4 Letter Word Again :)

It hasn't been easy, but I finally decided to really tell Travis how I felt about him. I know we haven't been together for that long, but honestly, he's different from anyone that I've ever been with. Even at the beginning of our relationship, I knew I had found something special with him. I have to say I was a jerk and started a lot of fights for no reason whatsoever, other than I was mad at myself, but thankfully I was (somehow) lucky enough that he didn't leave me because of this.

I had wanted to tell him for a while, and he came over to my house. I was laying on his chest when I looked up at him, kissed him and then told him I loved him. Without hesitation, he told me he loved me too and I couldn't wipe the stupid girly smile off my face. He loved me too!

Then this morning, I decided to ask T about the first day he knew he loved me. He’s a lot better with his words than I am and even though it was just an ordinary day, he made it sound beautiful.

“I was at the grocery store, getting groceries and started thinking ‘I wonder if Marci would like this, or I wonder if she would like the smell of these candles,’ and that’s when I knew that you were something different and special. I knew I more than just liked you.”

I nearly started to cry. I know this man loves me with more than anything I could ever explain and more than I ever deserve. And he’s better with his words than I could ever imagine being, but when he asked me when I knew I loved him, I told him the best I could.“We were at the hotel after [my friend’s] wedding and you started singing to me and made me start dancing with you just because that's what you do. I melted at that moment and knew I was supposed to be with you.”

Honestly, I think he's the reason it never worked out with anyone else.